Telling Them

My, oh my.

I'm completely overwhelmed by everything right now. School, that is. I am right now working on a presentation and two small papers on Randall Jarrell for tomorrow's poetry class. I making my way through it, but I'd rather be sleeping. But then there are the two giant papers that are due at the beginning of December, and I can't even figure out what I'm going to write them on. I'm lost. I'm confused. I'm overwhelmed. I'm never taking two literature classes in the same semester again. Two workshops? Sure. But I dread forty pages of literary research/analysis.

In addition to that, I am not allowed to enroll for the spring semester until a hold is taken off my account. They need my final transcript from KSU. Okay, fine. Got a letter from KSU today saying there's a hold on my account there because of something at the health center. What the heck?! So, now I have more stuff to deal with tomorrow so that I can hopefully enroll by Friday...but that means more money out of my pocket. Damn them. I wish I had known all of this sooner. Before I tried to enroll and couldn't. And now I'm not going to get into the classes that I want and need. It's crap.

The past week and a half has been...down. I haven't felt well, especially in the morning. It doesn't matter how much or how little I sleep--I get a headache or feel dizzy. I need a break. I started counseling and am going again on Friday. I hope it helps me. I need to feel better.

Jedsen completely surprised me tonight when I got home from class. He asked if I had gotten what he had left on the porch for me. Totally confused, I open the door...and there he is with a big plate of jack o'lantern sugar cookies! Adorable. So sweet. I needed him. And there he was. I think this is the first Halloween we've seen each other--even if it was only for two hours and even if we didn't do anything relating to Halloween other than eat cookies. I miss him. But I love this living 30 minutes from each other. It makes a short trip more feasible and worth it.

Oh, Happy Halloween!

I'm going back to my presentation now. It never ends. The the.