Have to

I purchased a gym membership today. Purchased. Which means I actually have to use it. Since the privilege to use a gym is not buried in student fees this year (because I no longer have student fees), I can't ignore it. I am a gym member, and I must go. To Nautilus Fitness Center.

I've been talking about getting healthy for years, particularly the last three years of grad school. I've made proclamations of "tomorrow" I'll breathe better, eat better, move. It's been exhausting. And exhaustion and frustration and loneliness and gross-feelingness have led me here, to this big moment of paying to get healthy. Because I know if I don't use it I will be throwing away money and a better physical, emotional, and mental life.

Here ye, Internet. I will become the Tiny Toner that Jedsen proclaimed me to become some three years ago. Tiny Toner I be.